![]() ![]() ![]() Hope is hard to find in the dark, where you’re groping now, but easier if you turn on the light. If it could happen to me, why shouldn’t it happen to you? Maybe one of those drugs that’s still in the lab, one we don’t even have a name for yet, is the one that will work on your tumor. And there are lots more drugs behind it, if or when it stops helping, as you’ve found out. My miracle is a pill, too, not an IV drug, so I just pop a few pills instead of sitting in a chair for hours while the IV drips into my veins or port. Most of my LMS friends are gone now, I’m sad to say, but 11 3/4 years later, I’m still here. My tumor was re-tested and I had GIST, which very often responds to Gleevec, not LMS, which, unfairly, doesn’t. And by golly, in less than 5 years, they announced Gleevec. So I had one operation after another, one "procedure" after another. But I decided that I would be the 1 in 10 who did live 5 years and beyond– I’d do anything to stick around until they developed a magic pill that would take the tumors away. And the life span for LMS, the only facts I could find back in those pre-Google, pre-computer-in-every-home days, was that 9 out of 10 people did not survive 5 years. It isn’t fair, not at all!īut I try to remember one fact: when they decided the mysterious lump they’d removed that terrible 4th of July night was cancer, they called it leiomyosarcoma (LMS), because, outside 1 or 2 labs, GIST wasn’t even known back then as a separate disease. I want my full 90 years, and maybe more, but sometimes I’ve accepted the fact that I won’t have my full term. I know what it is to get deeply sad, really deep-down depressed, about the idea. You and I both have strong loves here, and we can get very unhappy facing the idea that we might not be here for 90+ years, like my mother and grandmother. I don’t want to leave them, or Doug, who has taken care of me all these years. I know exactly how you feel about leaving your babies… even though mine are adults now, they still need me, and my 6 grandchildren need me. You think you might be facing death, and a shortened life. That’s a big idea and often I can’t quite wrap my mind around the fact. But I sure was glad to be back with my family, who were simply wonderful, staying with me almost around the clock. I have no memory of the first week or two, thank heavens. Then this past fall I collapsed from side effects, mainly edema, out of control with Gleevec, and they tell me I almost died twice during that time, before I woke up in the hospital. With only one surgeon on duty that holiday night in that small hospital, they didn’t get around to operating on me until 3 AM and by then, they tell me, the peritonitis was so bad I almost died. The pain was more than I’d ever experienced in my life. That night, the fireworks were all inside my belly, as you can imagine. It’s not only the country’s birthday, but it was also my 54th birthday, and we were on our way to visit my daughter and granddaughter, to watch the fireworks with them. My tumor ruptured from my small intestine 12 years ago this coming July 4th. Thank heavens, those feelings departed, and I’m still around, battling away, and having some good times too. I’ve had to deal with some bad set-backs, the most recent one last fall, and boy, there were times when I wondered how I could escape this earth with the least amount of trouble, and many more times when I was scared to death and couldn’t bear the idea of not being here for my family. Sue, I haven’t used your new drug so I can’t help you with information about it, but I have many years’ experience with fighting Gist, and I know how really down you can get at times. Louise wrote this letter to her listmate friend who was feeling down… You are solely responsible for adequate protection and backup of the data and equipment used in connection with using software ListMate Pro Demo.It’s Okay When You Don’t Feel Up by Louise Ladd ![]() The use of the software and any damage done to your systems. PCWin has not developed this software ListMate Pro Demo and in no way responsible for PCWin free download center makes no representations as to the content of ListMate Pro Demo version/build 5.4 is accurate, complete, virus free or do not infringe the rights There are inherent dangers in the use of any software available for download on the Internet. ListMate Pro Demo 5.4 download version indexed from servers all over the world. It can handle files of up to a MASSIVE 2 gigs in size, provides innovative and comprehensive feedback/summary reports for all work done, and. ListMate Pro provides a more economical solution to the email marketer's list management needs. ![]()
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